Right now, I am doubting the existence of God. You can call it the devil at work but I believe either God or the devil has to prove itself glorious. I want to read my bible, but when I open it my eyes are filled with tears. I want to say a prayer but I can't open my mouth. Rather, I moan in discomfort all day. But John 14:18 says "I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.
I have never been doubtful of the lord I am serving. I am at crossroads. I am minutes away from giving up on my faith in God.
I mean if people are about to start asking you to show you your so-called God then I doubt his existence.
Faith like a mustard seed is what the bible says but how can faithless people who trust not in God but their own efforts be unwilling to trade places with christians?
The bible says faith without works is dead so let me add that I read my bible everyday and I pray everyday. I am a big giver of tithes and offerring. I share the word and God's promises with people around me. However in the last couple of day, I don't see why I should read my bible, pray or give if faith with work is still dead anyways. As far as my faith, I am blank.
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